i d!= dream

Song: Vonda Shepard

I like the way you wanted me
Every night for so long baby
I like the way you needed me
Every time things got rocky

I was believing in you
Am I mistaken do you say,
Do you say what you mean
I want our love to last forever

But I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

I like the way you'd hold me
Every night for so long baby
And I like the way you'd say my name
In the middle of the night
While you were sleeping

I was believing in you
Was I mistaken
Do you mean, mean what you say
When you say our love could last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

(Bridge)
You would run around and lead me on forever
While I wait at home thinking that we're together
I wanted our love to last forever

Well I'd rather you be mean than love and lie
I'd rather hear the truth and have to say goodbye
I'd rather take a blow at least then I would know
But baby don't you break my heart slow

din blog for quite sometime le... dunno wat to tok abt... hahaha... anyway, realise that i only blog when i dun feel rite... like when i feel sad or wad... or is it that i only feel sad and no emotion that's why i dun tok abt happy thing?
anyway, i'm really upset now... juz felt very mentally drained... and no one seems to take wat i'm saying seriously... when i'm telling the truth that i dun feel rite, no one seem to care... i told my friends i may break down... they dun seem to get it... i told him i'm mentally tired... he seem to think i'm joking...
no no no... i am not joking or acting... i'm seriously not in the mood for anything... i dun want trials, outings, watever........................................ and i'm only acting that i'm very onz so as not to affect other ppl's mood... sometimes i really felt that the more i laugh, the more upset i am....... it's been such a long time that i last felt like i want to cry... i dun even felt like crying for r/s stuff... but now i dunno why... i want to cry... and i'm crying... is it bcoz of the many things that happen recently? i dunno why but i keep on have this feeling of 委屈.... weird......... but i cant explain it also........ maybe i'm having a depression... everything is juz so weird now...... i can even explain my own emotions............. wat the %^$%$&%@$#^% grrr.........................