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i wonder if it's the exam or is it because of me being too too sensitive... today was juz watching the news abt the thailand ppl folding paper cranes to seek peace, then i suddenly feel like crying... coz i feel really sad... think i'm crazy le... dunno why recently suddenly feel like crying so much... juz yesterday was telling mama abt my nightmare in hall then as i tok and tok i want to cry... and i did... cried a little.. heehee... :P but i din dare to let my mom see... so pretend to take clothes from behind then quickly wipe away the tears... dont want mama to worry abt me... even though that nite i wanted so badly to go home immediately late in the middle of the night... in the end had to hide inside my blanket... terribly homesick... if there is not paper the next day i die die will go home...
anyway, back to the crying thingy... think i'm siao liao... if it because last time when i'm young i din cry a lot? too guai liao... maybe if i cry more then now wont want to cry so much liao... hahahah... totally crapz... or maybe i'm really a terribly sensitive creature... haahaha... think i always like to cry but too shy to cry... dont like to let ppl see me cry... but cant help feeling this tinge of sadness everytime... maybe i'm the kind of person who will get into depression... hhaahaha... crapz again... aiya... like to cry then like to cry loh... 没设么大不了的... hahahha... think this exam is really turning me crazy liao....
i shall never be so unprepared again... this time is really horrible loh... i spend the sem dunno studying wad... never being so unprepared for a exam before... seriously this time i studied harder even than when i studied for A's loh... but i know the results wont be so fantastic... coz i havent being consistent in my work... slack too much le... muz take this time as a 教训. next sem onwards cannot play play leh... i hope to pull up my cap...
btw, i think parents are very strange people... isnt it good that i'm willing to study so hard for my exams??? but my mom and dad juz keep on telling me to rest... dun study too much... muz rest also... dun get too tired... funny... now exams time leh... if i dun study now when shld i study? and i alreay lagged so much... think my physics paper gone somemore... jialet... think it's very ineffiecient to study at home... din get much done... and my mom actually make me go watch tv so that i wont be studying... gosh.... plus all the food that they are feeding me... hahaha... no wonder i want to stay at home and never leave the house... hahahaha... me too pampered le... not good not good... hahaha...:P
anyway, 4 more days to end of exams... i shall jia you jia you!!!! make sure i do better for the rest of the papers than i do for physics... tsktsk... my physics really sux... anyone can help?? hahhahaah.... k lah... back to mugging maths which i'm not much better.... hahahhahah....