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think my mood is now in all time low... dunno why... think i'm becoming a danger to myself...
juz today on my way home waiting at the bus stop outside school, i began staring at the flowing traffic and think that maybe i should juz walk into the middle of the road... well... this isnt the first time i had such tots... i wonder if there will be a day that i really do wat i think... wonder if it can be considered normal.. do other ppl have the same kind of tots? dun think so.. think i muz be kind of crazy liao... i'm a hazard to myself... how how how? tsktsktsk... haiz... still yet to tell mom and dad abt the accident... really have to do it tonight... i dun want to let them find out only after the letter is sent to my hse... but well, at least i told mom abt my results le... know she's dissapointed.. but then at least i told her le...
got the tot of jumping out of the window.. diaoz... think i really going crazy le... better find myself something to do... suppose to rest at home today and sleep.. but end up my aunt visit.. and i cant go sleep... but well, think the only good thing that i realise today is that my patience with kids is really getting better le.. my little cousin is such a nui***** but i manage to remind nice and gentle with her... no tot of beating her at all... but again.. it may be bcoz i'm too tired to be angry with her...