Wednesday, December 15, 2004
*yawn* (mouth big big...) finally got home from POOH camp... slept from 1 to 8... but still sleeping... hahahah... who tell me dun sleep for the 2nd nite lah... hahaha.. but it was really terribly funny listening to xiqian and his gang crap... they really crappy sia... hahaha... shuyang told that really lousy but extremely funny 'ghost siew mai' story... hahaha... then they also talk abt stories from NS lah... but lucky i no need to go thru NS... so not so scared... hahahah... still quite mild... not the really very scary one.... heehee...
hmmm.. then faced the kids thru out the 2nd day... nv knew it could be so tiring loh... and i guess it's really the case that i dun mixed very well with kids... i can take care of them but i dun go into their world... think i'm the same with them...i have poor social skill... and it's so difficult to ensure their safety when they run around so much... then that nite was in charge of one of the station games... shouted at the kids when they juz cant be paying attention in the game and play the game properly... hahahaha... think when i really scared my partner... surpose to be me introducing the games to the children one.. then after one gp my partner take over from me... hahahaha... me fierce tigger... hahahaha... think by that time i really too tired liao... and the kids so noisy... cannot take it... hahahaha... dunno why but feel quite out of the gp leh... i dun mixed well... but that's usual stuff.. i always dun mixed well.. i'm a lousy 'socialist'... hate toking to ppl.. but i cant live without talking to ppl... wat a dellima...
hahaha... dad juz passed to me a cute bear handphone accessory... hahahaha... kk.. out of point... anyway, this camp was a cool down period for me ba... and i finally came to a decision... i shld not lead yl on anymore... was really happy that he was interested in me and want to do so much stuff for me... but then things wont work out between us... coz i seriously dun know him well.. and there is no point wasting both of our precious time...
reasons:
1. we dunno each other well.. last last sun was juz the 1st meeting after 7 long long yrs.. and i din interact much with him during the outing also.. so it's far to weird already...
2. he is from poly and dun really plan to go uni.. i hate to admit it but i have to admit it doest affect me a lot.. i dun have common topic to tok with him at all.. even when i ask him abt his course, i cant find stuff to tok abt anyway... and i cant seem to find anything to ask him abt... i need someone who i can tok to with common topics... not juz someone who is "willing to lend me a listening ear and will always be there for me" (that's quoting from his msg) ... i need something deeper than that..
3. he is the same age as me... i want someone older than me.. further more he's entering NS only next yr... there's going to be such a big gap... like when i finish uni then he will have juz get into uni(that's if he wants to) , then when i'm working he will be still studying.. i dun think i can take that...
haiya.. there's is juz far too much diff between me and him le... there's no way we are going to bridge that gap... even if there's ways, i dun wish to make any effort... i juz dun have the energy to do so... or rather i'm too lazy... i'm juz lazy to make all the adjustment for him lah.. y waste the time? and he seem to visualise the whole thing far too much into the future le... machiam i will marry him like that... no no no... that's is too qi guai le... i still want to 'play' around more b4 i settle down.... singlehood is fine with me...
k lah.. think that's it... shld go and sleep le... my 2nd round of sleeping...
hmmm.. then faced the kids thru out the 2nd day... nv knew it could be so tiring loh... and i guess it's really the case that i dun mixed very well with kids... i can take care of them but i dun go into their world... think i'm the same with them...i have poor social skill... and it's so difficult to ensure their safety when they run around so much... then that nite was in charge of one of the station games... shouted at the kids when they juz cant be paying attention in the game and play the game properly... hahahaha... think when i really scared my partner... surpose to be me introducing the games to the children one.. then after one gp my partner take over from me... hahahaha... me fierce tigger... hahahaha... think by that time i really too tired liao... and the kids so noisy... cannot take it... hahahaha... dunno why but feel quite out of the gp leh... i dun mixed well... but that's usual stuff.. i always dun mixed well.. i'm a lousy 'socialist'... hate toking to ppl.. but i cant live without talking to ppl... wat a dellima...
hahaha... dad juz passed to me a cute bear handphone accessory... hahahaha... kk.. out of point... anyway, this camp was a cool down period for me ba... and i finally came to a decision... i shld not lead yl on anymore... was really happy that he was interested in me and want to do so much stuff for me... but then things wont work out between us... coz i seriously dun know him well.. and there is no point wasting both of our precious time...
reasons:
1. we dunno each other well.. last last sun was juz the 1st meeting after 7 long long yrs.. and i din interact much with him during the outing also.. so it's far to weird already...
2. he is from poly and dun really plan to go uni.. i hate to admit it but i have to admit it doest affect me a lot.. i dun have common topic to tok with him at all.. even when i ask him abt his course, i cant find stuff to tok abt anyway... and i cant seem to find anything to ask him abt... i need someone who i can tok to with common topics... not juz someone who is "willing to lend me a listening ear and will always be there for me" (that's quoting from his msg) ... i need something deeper than that..
3. he is the same age as me... i want someone older than me.. further more he's entering NS only next yr... there's going to be such a big gap... like when i finish uni then he will have juz get into uni(that's if he wants to) , then when i'm working he will be still studying.. i dun think i can take that...
haiya.. there's is juz far too much diff between me and him le... there's no way we are going to bridge that gap... even if there's ways, i dun wish to make any effort... i juz dun have the energy to do so... or rather i'm too lazy... i'm juz lazy to make all the adjustment for him lah.. y waste the time? and he seem to visualise the whole thing far too much into the future le... machiam i will marry him like that... no no no... that's is too qi guai le... i still want to 'play' around more b4 i settle down.... singlehood is fine with me...
k lah.. think that's it... shld go and sleep le... my 2nd round of sleeping...
// posted by giam @ 11:46 PM 
