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heehee.. as wat the title show, this post is to wish my dearest friend...
heehee... i know age is beginning to be sensitive here, so i shan't say how old u are... hahahaa... hope u have a wonderful celebration!~ enjoy ur coming year!~ wish u get prettier and prettier... smarter and smarter... so u will get full cap score.. hahaha.. see i so good... :P anyway, so glad our friendship last so long!~ i also wish for many many more years of great friendship with u... heehee.. best is forever lah... i very greedy one... hahahah... hmmm.. think i crap enough... me already toking nonsense le... hahaha... take care girl!~ *hugz and kisses* =)
heehee... once again...
Yishan, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

oops... juz screw up for my ee exam... but it's ok... i'll do better for the next paper which is MATHS!~ hahahaa.. i now declare myself to be in love with maths.. .maths is my everything... okok.. this is the ki siaoz me toking... hahaha.. still got one more chapter to write in my maths formula sheet... but... hand got itchy again... hahaha... mind drifted away and started thinking abt wat i want to buy for myself... heehee... very long din go shopping... heart itching... hahaha....

my LIST....

1) a BICYCLE!
hahaha... weird.. but i really want to own a bicycle... then can cycle to liyan's hse ask her pei me go swimming.. heehee... toking abt swimming... i haven't swim for nearly a year le! hahaha.. dunno if i still remember how to swim... hahaha.. actually not really swimming lah.. go soak in the water and rot by the side of the pool toking to liyan... :P

2)LOVE ACTUALLY music scores' book...
heehee... by chance i saw it when i was out in plaza sing.... but when i see it i dun have enough money with me... so cant buy... ahahaha... that bk is 50++ bucks!!! think i muz be crazy to want to buy it... but i really like that movie!!! i'm going to buy everything that's related to it... hahahaa... but hopefully it's not bought by anyone else yet... that time when i see it, it's the last bk le! oh no.... it muz remain there!!!! i want to buy!!!! hahahaha...

3)A backpack...
hahahah.... juz realise i no longer own a normal bag.... my last bag 烂了... coz i dumb dumb left mentos in it and the "clever" ants came and took a bite! so there goes my bag... hey liyan... i finally found the source of ants to my hall room... it's that bag!!!! argh.... so after i clear up the mentos, then no more ants le... haiz..... so muz buy a new one....

4)guitar....
acutally still considering lah.... dunno if i'm really going to learn it or not... how how? anyone wants to learn together??? kim kheng told me a place to get cheap guitar... but i not sure if i want to buy it yet or not leh.... hmmm... one of the can buy but dunno buying thing on my list now....

5)PHONE!
hahahha... this is really something that i say now will go and buy then later juz forget it item... hahaha... the nice nice phones all so ex... then the motorola phone which i 看上眼 is still not out yet... ( hahahaha... yup... i still like motorola... still haven learn my lesson... it's not really a very user friendly brand like nokia...and i prone to drop and drop and drop... that's how the old phone died...)hmmm... think maybe for this i shld wait for it to "drop from the sky"! hahaha... actually is i'm going to hint hint to my dad... hopefully he get wat i hinting... then yeah!~ i can get a new phone for "free"... heehee... fat hopes... =p... dunno shld ask or not leh.... feel bad making my parents pay for wat i "want"... it's not even a need... coz i've got a phone now... yes, it's not a coloured phone but it's functioning very well... and i seriously have no use for a phone too good... waste the functions only... hahahaha

ok... think that's all for my list rite now..... shall slowly go and think wat other things i can buy!!! hahahaha... i siaoz liao... want to buy so many things..... better pray that i've got enough money.... and maybe my dad will pay me to work for him... hahahaha... wait long long ah me... =) =P

heehee... oh-oh... shldn't be blogging now.. but hand itchy... and laptop right in front of me.. hahaha.. so tempting.. still got 4 big chapters from ee which i haven finish.. but still... hahahaha....

anyway, i've been thinking abt it for a very very long time le... i want to have outing with my wisdom ppl... and also tj class... hahaha... so long nv see them... i miss all of u all... hahaha... ppl so u all want outing? i dun mind planning... hahaha... :P
hahahaha... will juz ask ard ba... ppl... i want to go out with u all... hahahaha... maybe can have ktv outing with wisdom ppl.. heehee... happy happy....

jialet lah... havent even hols i already holiday mood... ahahaha... muz slap myself to wake up!!! hahahaha... k lah... back to mugging my "dearest" ee.... i like ee!!!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee............... hahahahaha.... :P

anyway, decided to switch back to this layout.. think it's better... i like it plain... too fancy is too hurting to my eyes... my eyesight not good... rather look at plain plain stuff... will juz make changes according to this layout... lazy to source for other layout le..

Slap myself!!! my aim for the rest of my uni live is to be late for every outing for at least 1/2 hr... if u want me to be on time then tell me the meeting time is 1/2 hr earlier ba... dun like to wait for ppl anymore... why cant there be ppl to wait for me to come instead of me waiting for them to arrive? dun understand why ppl juz cant be early at all... it's a stupid habit to be late... but i dun care now... shall be late also... coz i think it's even more stupid to wait for ppl to come... and ppl dun appreciate u being there early for them... and they even say u are weird to be so early... fine... i wont be early then.... make myself so miserable and wait so long for wat? it's not as if i have nothing else better to do then to wait for them to show up... and when they do show up finally, i know i am angry... pissed... but when the person show up i'll still smile at them... it's stupid!!!! like that ppl wont even know i'm not happy with them being late... AND I REALLY DUN LIKE PPL TO BE LATE! IT APPLIES TO EVERYONE THAT I KNOW... dun u all know that it's not nice to waste other ppl's time? damn angry.... if u cant be early, next time let me know much much earlier can? even better, if u know u going to be late, juz let me know and let's call off the whole outing... angry angry angry...

Oh no... yishan.... help.... think i need to shot myself in the head liao... =p
hahaha.. that time i was still saying maybe u shldnt be too "friendly" to ur prof... hahaha.. now i think i'm too friendly to my tutor...or maybe it's the other way round... how how??? it's really weird... jialet... *slap myself hard hard to wake myself up* haiyo... yishan i need u to online now!!! need to tok to u... hahahaha...
hahaha.. think i siaoz liao...let's hope yishan read this before i see her online... hahahah...

HAIYA!!!! STRESS!!!!! tml is PROGRAMMING PRATICAL EXAM!!!! and i'm not prepared... still haven burnt the cd... how how??? argh!!!! back to studying... haiz...

I'm back again... hahahaa.. today write a lot... anyway, delicating this post to liyan!~ heehee
want to say a big thank you to liyan!!!!~ hahahaha... thanks lau dou, thanks for making my day..... u have totally cured my pms mood... makes me fell really great... that the happy feelings are back again!!!~
heehee... and i'm really glad that we could set a date to go out.... wat that touched me the most is that eventhough we couldnt find a day that fit both of us at first... u din give up juz like that... u came up with other suggestion... and finally we manage to find a day which both of us are free to make it...... it really meant a lot to me.... coz it give me a feeling that my friends haven left me... *grinz* it's really great to be able to go out with friends!!! actually it's more than that lah... that time when u know i sick u also showed me care and concern, and let me know that u will stand up for me if anyone dares bully me... u're such a great friend!!!! i love u!!!!!
hahaaha.. though i know liyan wont read this(for some riduculous reason that she still haven got my blog's add.. hahahaha...), i still want to write it out for everyone to know i have such a wonderful friend!!! hahahaha...... of coz to my other friends who showered me with care and concern when i'm down... thank you to u all too!!!!~
once and again to Liyan~ I LOVE YOU!!!!! =)

hmmm... now in a slightly better mood... but me still in pms~ gosh... think i'm surrounded by exam stress.... felt stress piling... anyway, to my dear cousin, do u think i'm exhibiting the symptons of breaking down?? guess i need help!!!! argh!!!! i hate it.... this kind of feelings sucks... yucks... happy feelings pls come back soon!!!!

anyway, i'm going to change the blog layout asap... maybe after exams... cant stand it le... so ugly........ eeeeeeeeeeee................

btw, juz to add, i hate this blog layout........ it's juz struck me how irritating the whole thing is..... the flashing pic and all that........ think the only thing i like abt it is the glass heart which say "be careful, it's fragile." ha...... think it fits my thinking perfectly ...................=(

i'm having terrible pms now..........
feeling upset...... very upset..... erm.... maybe juz quite upset........
dun understand why i got snapped by so many ppl... in juz one nite.... maybe they're not.. but juz give me a feeling that they are.... and then me have to give way and be nice to them instead of snapping back.... i dun like to do that! (actually wanted to say i hate it... but then think the word too strong and i shld be nice and not so bad) i'm born in the yr of ox and seriously i want to say i have very strong 牛脾气! serious! if it's last time, i sure wont be 客气 and either snap back or give a bad black face.... but y???? now i dun do that???this is ridiculous! i shld be angry and juz tell them wat i think... but no! me now like a stupid dumb dumb,become so nice and apologetic that i juz give way and even smile back and tok nicely........ this is totally rubbish!!!!!!!!!!! i know i'm not so nice one! wat's my big problem for being so 忍气吞声？ this is juz so not rite.....
somemore to one of them i'm toking to the person online... even though i'm very upset by wat the person says.... coz i dun agree... but i din show it...... i keep quiet and let the person go on and on... think that i'm so stupid that in the first place i shldnt have express any view at all... i shld juz tok abt the event then that's it....... and stop myself from commenting abt it at all....... to tell the truth, i dun like wat he say at all.......... wat the hell..... i dun like is i dun like wad....... can i even say wat i think? there's no point snapping at me.... i get ur point perfectly... dunno why but staring at the screen i got this urge to cry....... i'm horribly upset..... but doesnt matter............... coz stupid me continue to be nice and tok back nicely to the person............
now it's struck me..... i muz be a idiot!!!!! even though i juz did a iq quiz and i got iq of 120..... which shows that i'm not a idiot.......... i have no idea y but i seem to agree to let ppl push me around.... let them say watever they want and i juz everything also okok........ like i dun have my own view point and which is not true! i do have my own thinking......... i know i have..... but y cant i juz say them out???? i dun understand myself......... i shld really question myself..............
but now, since it's so late and me being so sick...... i shld go cover myself in my blanket and cry myself to sleep............. juz totally upset...........