Sunday, April 03, 2005
i'm having terrible pms now..........
feeling upset...... very upset..... erm.... maybe juz quite upset........
dun understand why i got snapped by so many ppl... in juz one nite.... maybe they're not.. but juz give me a feeling that they are.... and then me have to give way and be nice to them instead of snapping back.... i dun like to do that! (actually wanted to say i hate it... but then think the word too strong and i shld be nice and not so bad) i'm born in the yr of ox and seriously i want to say i have very strong 牛脾气! serious! if it's last time, i sure wont be 客气 and either snap back or give a bad black face.... but y???? now i dun do that???this is ridiculous! i shld be angry and juz tell them wat i think... but no! me now like a stupid dumb dumb,become so nice and apologetic that i juz give way and even smile back and tok nicely........ this is totally rubbish!!!!!!!!!!! i know i'm not so nice one! wat's my big problem for being so 忍气吞声？ this is juz so not rite.....
somemore to one of them i'm toking to the person online... even though i'm very upset by wat the person says.... coz i dun agree... but i din show it...... i keep quiet and let the person go on and on... think that i'm so stupid that in the first place i shldnt have express any view at all... i shld juz tok abt the event then that's it....... and stop myself from commenting abt it at all....... to tell the truth, i dun like wat he say at all.......... wat the hell..... i dun like is i dun like wad....... can i even say wat i think? there's no point snapping at me.... i get ur point perfectly... dunno why but staring at the screen i got this urge to cry....... i'm horribly upset..... but doesnt matter............... coz stupid me continue to be nice and tok back nicely to the person............
now it's struck me..... i muz be a idiot!!!!! even though i juz did a iq quiz and i got iq of 120..... which shows that i'm not a idiot.......... i have no idea y but i seem to agree to let ppl push me around.... let them say watever they want and i juz everything also okok........ like i dun have my own view point and which is not true! i do have my own thinking......... i know i have..... but y cant i juz say them out???? i dun understand myself......... i shld really question myself..............
but now, since it's so late and me being so sick...... i shld go cover myself in my blanket and cry myself to sleep............. juz totally upset...........
feeling upset...... very upset..... erm.... maybe juz quite upset........
dun understand why i got snapped by so many ppl... in juz one nite.... maybe they're not.. but juz give me a feeling that they are.... and then me have to give way and be nice to them instead of snapping back.... i dun like to do that! (actually wanted to say i hate it... but then think the word too strong and i shld be nice and not so bad) i'm born in the yr of ox and seriously i want to say i have very strong 牛脾气! serious! if it's last time, i sure wont be 客气 and either snap back or give a bad black face.... but y???? now i dun do that???this is ridiculous! i shld be angry and juz tell them wat i think... but no! me now like a stupid dumb dumb,become so nice and apologetic that i juz give way and even smile back and tok nicely........ this is totally rubbish!!!!!!!!!!! i know i'm not so nice one! wat's my big problem for being so 忍气吞声？ this is juz so not rite.....
somemore to one of them i'm toking to the person online... even though i'm very upset by wat the person says.... coz i dun agree... but i din show it...... i keep quiet and let the person go on and on... think that i'm so stupid that in the first place i shldnt have express any view at all... i shld juz tok abt the event then that's it....... and stop myself from commenting abt it at all....... to tell the truth, i dun like wat he say at all.......... wat the hell..... i dun like is i dun like wad....... can i even say wat i think? there's no point snapping at me.... i get ur point perfectly... dunno why but staring at the screen i got this urge to cry....... i'm horribly upset..... but doesnt matter............... coz stupid me continue to be nice and tok back nicely to the person............
now it's struck me..... i muz be a idiot!!!!! even though i juz did a iq quiz and i got iq of 120..... which shows that i'm not a idiot.......... i have no idea y but i seem to agree to let ppl push me around.... let them say watever they want and i juz everything also okok........ like i dun have my own view point and which is not true! i do have my own thinking......... i know i have..... but y cant i juz say them out???? i dun understand myself......... i shld really question myself..............
but now, since it's so late and me being so sick...... i shld go cover myself in my blanket and cry myself to sleep............. juz totally upset...........
// posted by giam @ 12:32 AM 
