i d!= dream

i cant sleep...
i'm crying so hard that now i have puffy eyes...
i realise my heart hurts so badly that it's so pain...
and to add on is my headache...
now it's pain everywhere...
i tried comforting myself by patting my head...
i got a little calmer...
but got worse after my head started to think...
i realise that i try to stretch my heart so wide that when i let go,
it's painful... very painful...
i shld nv have tried to do that...
nv try to accomodate anyone...
especially ppl who are not worth it...
my friend...
dun say anything if u dun mean it...
dun bother to shi1 she3 any concern when u dun even care...
it makes things worst...
i rather take it as u dun have time to care then to know that u dun care...
coz it makes me feel even more hurt...
dun say u have a phobia to give...
coz i'll then realise u once had the ability to give...
but u were unwilling to give some to me...

i guess i'm probably too demanding...
i think i may be really sick in the head...
i realise if i'm sick in the head and also sick in the body...
then i'm totally sick...
i probably shldnt be going for class or doing anything at all...
but i cant...
coz it's juz the way of life...
and i'm suppose to live with it...
i'm totally not making any sense now with the things i say...
but i dun care...
coz i'm still crying and crying and crying...