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You are a Great Girlfriend

When it comes to your guy, you're very thoughtfulBut you also haven't stopped thinking of yourselfYou're the perfect blend of independent and caringYou're a total catch - make sure your guy knows it too!

Your Nail Polish Color is Red

How you're unique: You have an incredible eye for style and art Why your style rocks: You are classic and classy - and that's hot! What this color says about you: "I'm smart, sassy, and sexy. And I know it."

You are Platform Sandals

Funky and urbanYou've got a cutting edge style that everyone enviesA little bit downtown, a little bit euro, and whole lot of sexy!

Your Vibe Is Secretly Sexy

Sexy isn't exactly a word you'd use to describe yourselfBut you have a quite allure that certain men feel appealingYou don't need to flaunt your stuff to be sexierA little more confidence in yourself, and you'll really light up a room!

You Are A Lily

You are a nurturer and all around natural therapist.People see you as their rock. And they are able to depend on you.You are a soothing influence. You can make people feel better with a few words.Your caring has more of an impact than even you realize.

Your Element is Wood

Your power colors: green and brown Your energy: generative Your season: spring Like a tree, you are always growing and changing.And while your life is dynamic, you are firmly grounded.You have high morals and great confidence in yourself and others.You have a wide set of interests, and you make for intersting company.

You're Part Diva

You know that a girl's gotta work it to get her way in the world.And while you aren't about to throw a tantrum at every turn...You do amp up the drama when you know you need it.You mix charm, honesty, and kindness to get ahead.

You Are a Tomboy

You're having too much fun to bother with nail polish and crazy diets.Guys are instead impressed by how much you know and do!

You Are Bold Red Boots

You like to put your most outrageous foot forward!

You Are a Good Girl

You are 70% Good and 30% BadGenerally speaking, you're a very good girl.(But you don't have us totally fooled!)

Your Life is Like

Serendipity

Your Ideal Marriage Proposal Is

Mutual, after a great conversation about your future and feelings.

Something i got from my friend's blog... quite a accurate description i think...

The Virgo female usually has a strongly developed maternal instinct and makes for a very devoted wife and mother. Counted among the best housekeepers, she is economical and delights in having her home and personal belongings tasteful as well as elegant. This is a woman who will be extremely precise...even to the point of fussiness. Clean and chaste in thought, most Virgo females display expressions of purity and virtue. There is normally a certain fascinating sweetness lingering in the eyes and about the mouth. Females governed by this Sign love those who are pure in mind and who possess characters which are just and true. Thus, they tend to dislike the baser instincts associated with the male population and are apt to find marriage something of a disappointment. Nonetheless, the magnetism of the Virgo woman is very marked and once she has gained an influence over another person, she will rule absolutely. Although the heart of this female will not go out to the world in general, she is likely to be very loving and affectionate toward those of whom she is fond. If one single word could describe the Virgo woman, it would probably be discriminating. She demands action rather than words and quickly seeks commitment in any relationship.

With a love of finery, dress, society and display, women who fall under the jurisdiction of Virgo will resort to any honorable means in order to gratify their desires in these areas. Likely to be a leader of fashion...if circumstances permit...she will always show excellent taste in the selection of wearing apparel. These women harbor much respect for the beautiful coupled with an outstanding perception of color, which often develops into artistic talent and may be displayed in their use of a needle, brush and pencil. Floral arrangements and home decoration are their particular specialities. This female is blessed with a quick and accurate eye which enables her to excel in any profession which utilizes such gifts. This woman is not one to be trifled with and she truly knows what she is all about. It would be a grave mistake to underestimate this female. She will set goals and overcome any odds to achieve them. The most enlightened Virgo woman is one who has developed both her intellectual and spiritual sides. Such a female is extremely powerful, magnetic and charming...one who could possibly sway an entire nation, if not the entire world.

Acccommodating and adjustable, this woman may basically be a shy individual, but such will not deter her from overcoming life's obstacles. If some flaw or imperfection is perceived in a relationship, then she will have no hesitation in breaking the bond. When annoyed, females who fall under the jurisdiction of this Sign can be shrewd and fussy and they are certainly nobody's fool. However, this woman can be won over with grace and taste rather than physical charms. The approach to life here is direct. Virgo women can be pessimistic and critical souls but somewhat earthy in their judgments. This is one of the few female types of the Zodiac who can be trusted in every way. Often possessing the reasoning powers customarily associated with males, the Virgo woman refuses to adopt a veneer of helpless feminine charm...although she is usually feminine in appearance. Severe in her moral judgments, this woman is frequently good at hiding such, presenting a smiling face to the world and always pleasant on the surface. By no means a spoil-sport, being tolerant and wise in many ways, the Virgo female does possess such high standards for herself that she often seethes with inner tension. In addition, this woman will probably have a tendency toward hypochondria. She is so centered on being perfect that she is inclined to imagine ailments and diseases whenver she feels the slightest bit out of sorts. In truth, however, the Virgo female rarely requires medicine at all and usually lives a long and useful life...frequently appearing much younger than she actually is.

Intellectual by nature and blessed with a gift of language...or even the powers of a retentative memory which helps her pass examinations...this female is something of an academic type which can be threatening to many ordinary males. Nonetheless, this is a woman who does possess sex-appeal and is often counted among the prettiest females of the Zodiac. She will also be lively and vivacious well into old age. The woman governed by Virgo will have a quick and alert mind but can be something of a snob. Regardless, she respects all the old-fashioned virtues and is one of most subtle and delicately cast women of the entire Zodiac. As a mother, she will be relatively indulgent, taking infinite pains to understand her children. As a wife, she will constantly strive for perfection in every way...backing her partner in each endeavor while making every effort to be self-effacing.

how i responce, react, care etc is directly proportional to the time and effort u are willing to give me.... (in a postive manner)

== increase care, concern and effort leads to increase niceness from me...

that means how much u are willing to invest in me determine how much i'm willing to give back in return to u...

the equation would be Y=mX... with m as the positive gradient... and there's is no +C (which C is a positive number) this means that i would not require u to put in more effort before i respond... as long as u put in some thing... i'll give back.. sometimes maybe even more... but of coz that depends on the m value...

and because the equation is not Y-t =mX (which t is a positive number), i means that it's very unlikely that i would initiate putting in effort... but if i really do so, and put in effort... it means i'm not very happy le... and then in that case, my niceness will decay exponentially...

==> degree of Niceness = e^-t (where t refers to the amount of time i initiate any effort to be nice)

and because i'm really such a nice person, my degree of niceness will never drop below zero... but please do not try me... cause if i'm really cannot take it, then i'll have to say good bye... but since my tolerance level is quite high, it may take a rather long time before i get fed up....and finally give up... so unless u dun care abt that, dun make me give up k...

i'm not happy not sad not angry not anything...
i think i'm experiencing no emotions...
is that something rite or wrong?
i'm biting myself... till it turn all red
and if i bit anymore it will bleed
and the skin will drop off...
crazy rite?
but i guess it's ok...
coz i dun care..

hmmm... tml got test... suppose to be sleeping by now.. but i dunno why i dun feel like sleeping yet... at least i dun want to move at all from my chair...
being thinking a lot... which is not very good considering that i'm suppose to concentrate on studying for my test or at least finish up my assignment which is due tml!~ hahhaha... but mind juz drift off lah... think i'm already in holiday mood liao...
read a bit of my previous posts... and realise that i'm really very different from when i juz enter uni... it seem to me, that i'm rather childish last time.. ok... still quite childish now but maybe a bit more mature? i hope... hmmm... had a small little chat with my big cousin last nite in grandma's hse... realise that i shld really start planning for my future le... do i want to be an engineer or shld i juz get into the finacial sector? cousin told me that private companies have use for engin graduates too... and their starting pay is really good...not say engineers pay is not good...but last wk during lecture juz make me realise that engineers need to be responsible for lots of stuff... and i'm not sure if i'm up to it... wat if i build something that collapse? confused mind....
anyway, cousin also kept on asking me to get myself attached in uni... hahaha... din tell her that i'm actually attached liao... dun think i'll let any of my relatives know soon... well that links me to wat another cousin say to me... dun think that bcoz u're attached now then u go around letting the whole world knows... u shld remain as not single but not not available too... hahahhaa... cute rite? juz like wat another fren tells her bf, keep ur options open... hahaha... two very different views from two generations... even though the age gap is not that big... but that's probably how different ppl who are working vs ppl who have not start working yet...
k lah... i've crapped enough... to think that i've nothing in mind to blog abt when i started on this post... still type something so long... hahahaha....

Yishan sees it.. dennis sees it... even jun hao sees it... but he din see it... haiz... not concern abt me at all... how is he going to convince me that he's true?

but i'll forget it... coz,

u're stressed.... so ok, i'll swallow anything down..
hopefully i dun get indigestion...

Haiz... he forgot wat he said again...

and i'm super hungry and tired... think i'm falling sick soon... idiot me cant get on to the bus or get a cab back to hall at all... first the cab uncle nv see me.. then there's no cab for so long.. then cabs came but are hired... finally there's this ger who snatched the cab away from me... great....... and i'm juz so tired to try squeeze up the bus... and when i finally got up the bus... the bus is the wrong direction one... had to walk over from pgp instead....

and tml is my hydraulics quiz... i've no idea how i'm going to do the quiz at all.. yes i did study.. but i've no time to practise the qns at all... and today's meeting had to drag so long.. and ppl are so not punctual... i had to wait from 4plus k... and meeting only starts at 640plus plus... stupid me... shld have juz forget abt the meeting and go back to hall and rest instead... to think i din had a good sleep the previous and the nite before... i'm juz totally exhusted...

then there's no dinner... shld have juz went with meitoon to eat dinner before the meeting loh.. since everyone's late bcoz they were taking their own sweet time to eat before coming up... and today i juz had to take my lunch at 11plus.. and last all the way till now... already near 11 le... i still haven eat or drink anything... at this rate onwards, think i can become shen2 xian1 le...

oh... forget to add... i took 1 hr to come back to hall from yih...

he forgets wat he say... haiz...

Blue~You are the blue angel. You are creative,
spiritual and wise. Your soul emplys eternity
meaning your soul will last forever. You are a
wise beyond your years and know so much that
others do not. You yourself do not realise just
how wise you are. You make a great deal of
difference to people's lives. Your colour
represents the sky and water. You could be the
angel of either of these. You are a very
calming person that people can easily relate to
you and feel comfortable around but when you
get angry (which takes a great deal of hard
work to accomplish) you give off an auror of
security and authority that people tremble
under. Your innocent face hides the fact you
can take control of any situation and have a
strong head on your shoulders. People should
know better than to challenge your great mind
and strength of soul. Which is unbeatable. Your
personality is quite neutral and you are
versatile and can fit in with your surroundings
making you easy to befriend and get to know.

Your angel wings are large and white, ending
at the tips with purple that shimmers like the
stars. Like your mind it is very beautiful and
enchanting.
You are extremely creative and can be found
writing, drawing, reading anything artistic and
creative. You usually like to wear clothes that
flow and wrap around you, comfortable but
elegant and usually of different shades of blue
and made from long and light materials.

Your angelic soul can be found in the
disney film of cinderella which represents
imagination, creativity, artistic talent,
literature, education, cleverness, elegance and
the stars.


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Your element is Fire: Strong, hot tempered,
powerful, and passionate. Well now lets see,
being fire you are quite strong and powerful,
people look up to you greatly and often seek
your protection. You have the ability to gain
many friends and you are always one people can
count on to do what you say you will do. You
are extremely loyal be it friends or family
you'll stick up for them and you are never
willing to put them in a position that could
hurt them. You know what roll you play in life,
leader, and you intend to let people know it.
Not everyone is capable of leadership but you
certainly have the willpower and flare to do
it. You have quite a temper if it shows itself,
one that can often lead you into trouble. Once
your mind is made up there is no changing it
but no one said that was a bad thing.


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Today marked the 7th month we are together.... another 5 mths to 1 year....

Sometimes i feel really weird... is that really so hard to cheer somebody else up? is it that difficult to spare the time for that somebody to make him or her feel happy again? does that someone always have to cheer themselves up themselves? how do u cheer urself up when u're already not happy? why muz ppl juz ignore the unhappy person and then hope that he or she juz feel happy again on their own effort? how is it possible? is that small act of charity so hard to spare? is it really so hard to help wipe away the tears and giving them a hug so difficult? is leaving them alone that great and good way for them to rot away themselves?

i'm now offically 20... reach the big 2 liao... receive a number of presents from my dear friends... lots of smses from my old to new friends, some i'm really surprise that they remembered.. then got 2 bday celebration also.. one from agapo ppl.. and the other from the yishun ppl.. but no surprise lah.. i kind of expected it... guess i'm really horrible... i juz cant stop myself from destroying the surprises ppl had for me.. some how i'll juz have the yu4 gang3 that something is going to happen and i'll be expecting it to happen in exactly the way that i tot...
but anyway, guess this yr's bday wasnt such a great day for me... i dunno why but i'm juz not happy... am i demanding too much or wat? i juz dunno why... think i'm upset that the first person to wish me is not the person i want...but it's ok last nite i was made happy again when yishan came and wish me on msn... and she told me that she actually pasted a memo on her lappy to remind herself abt my bday... i'm really touched by it..it touches me that someone actually cared so much abt me.... and it's someone whom i've not contacted for quite some time... i'm juz really thankful that i had such a wonderful friend... wonder how can i live without such friends... and also thanks to yijun also... thanks for remembering..
anyway, back to the bday day itself... the morning started fine... in fact it was great... coz smses was pouring in from ppl whom i din expect to remember my bday at all.. thanks ppl... it's great knowing that u all care... and well, the greatest surprise was when weijun knocked at my door... at first i tot she's juz going to wish me happy bday but instead she gave me a big box! well i really din expect it... din know she wld make such great effort to get me a present... of coz i muz thank liyan too! thanks lao dou!~ it's ppl like u that make me the happiest person!~ thanks my dears.... btw, the present is a musical box! the one i always wanted when i was young but no one will buy for me... inside got ballet dancer one... the present juz got me so excited that i was jumping around with it...
also need to thanks wey ling!~ thanks ger!~ it's so sweet of u to remember my bday and gave me that present... it's really nice of u... big surprise too.. hahaha... and ur effort to try to catch me... thanks ger!~ thank you thank you thank you...
then after that bryan came lah... hmmm... got surprise also but shldnt talk abt it here... then after that we left for yishun and then my mood juz go down from the trip there onwards... i dunno wat's wrong with me lah... think i've got some problem in my head and heart.... i juz got sianz with everything... and there's no one to cheer me up... dun feel like a bday at all... juz think that the session is horrible, the elections is horrible... dunno why, i juz think everything is so messed up and no one even care.... maybe it's juz my prob...it seem like everyone's so happy but only i dun think so... and everyone got a friend to tok to except me... kk.. blame me for not making an effort... blame myself for being lazy... but i juz dun feel like approaching anyone at all... and then juz now when i was showering i suddenly got this tot... i dun want to be in yishun anymore... i juz want to get out of this mess asap... i even tot of being irresponsible and juz quit even b4 the camp thing is done and over...i juz want to get away.... horrible me i know... but i juz want to get out of everything... is it a sign that i'm burnt out? or wat? i dunno... anyone can give me an enlightenment?
anyway, juz some conclusion from the day itself... i always tot surprise is good.. is impt.. but then today i realise something too.. surprise itself is not enough... u need make the person feel speical also... there's no point surprising the person when it only make the person feel that wat u're doing is like li4 xing2 gong1 shi4? u do it becoz u shld and not bcoz u care?
anyway, i finally dropped the tears that shld have been dropped yesterday... i need a better way to vent my emotions...
btw, to loky... the results to the evaluation is out... fail.. how?